summer tracklist

don't want to go to sleep though i am tired. loving the songs that pandora is playing for me on my edward sharpe & the magnificent zeros station.

fresh feeling, the eels
home, edward sharpe & the magnificent zeros
two weeks (radio mix), grizzly bear
dream a little dream of me, the mamas and the papas
vinca rosea (instrumental), mf doom
basic space, the xx
40 day dream, edward sharpe & the magnificent zeros
black & blue, miike snow
heartbreaker, mstrcrft
ghostwriter, rjd2

good advice

i came across this blog post, 10 ways i sabotaged my success and how to avoid my mistakes, and though the author was writing about entrepreneurship, his advice can be applied to just about anything. reading through his list, i know i'm guilty of just about all the mistakes he's made himself (particularly concentrating on too many things at once).

time standing still

that's what june felt like and now july is feeling that way, too. i can't help but think that i should use this time to really think about what i should be doing next.

what now?

i went out with one of my friends yesterday. we got to talking and i told her about my plans for grad school. as we talked she would stop to tell me that i don't sound passionate about my career aspirations. i told her that that's because i have no previous experience working in international development. that i don't know where my place is in this. how does one become passionate about something you've never done before? i remember she wasn't passionate about going into teaching either when she first started. (i had asked her then if she's always wanted to teach. she said, no). anyhow, she then suggested i try the peace corps to get my feet wet to see if this is something i really want to do. i told her 2 years is too much for me. i could do 6 months, maybe 1 year. she then suggested i go for 6 months or however long i could stay and then if it's not for me then i can leave. otherwise, i know it would give me that experience and it may answer the questions that i have right now.

throwing peace corps into the mix now makes me more confused about what my next step should be. it isn't a bad idea. it makes a lot of sense but it will push me back another 2 or 3 years. sigh.