Spoke Too Soon, Again.

I feel I have corrected myself so many times on this blog. I'm about to do it again. Looks like I won't be going into school psychology as a career even though I could see myself in that role. At this point, I probably should not announce what I think it is. It is probably better for me to wait until I actually get accepted into a graduate program. By that time, it would have been determined. The only thing I know is that I will be working with kids.

Currently I am waiting to hear back from a job I applied to three weeks ago. I submitted an application on the day of the deadline. This uncertainty is just unsettling. Today and some time last week, I filled out a volunteer form to work at two different elementary schools. I also submitted my resume to an after-school center near home.

In the same shopping center is a tae kwon do school so I went over and got some information. I was looking into enrolling in some sort of recreational class to meet new people. I'm one of those people that doesn't go out much. I was actually thinking of another tae kwon do school but saw this one on my path. Turns out this one is even better location and schedule-wise. However, I don't think I should spend that kind of money right now. I'm also considering yoga. This class is a lot more affordable and runs until the end of January. Both classes will be beneficial. The tae kwon do class will be a nice change from a few of the classes I've taken in the past where my classmates were over 50. This class I will only have to worry about a little kid wearing a black belt. The other thing I have to worry about is walking and taking the bus in the evening. It's getting darker earlier now.

Looking Back, Looking Forwards

 

Do you ever look back at your life like one of those scenes from a movie with sad music playing in the background? Something about sad music always gets me. I do look back at my life. This song was just playing on my Pandora station. Though it's titled Angeles there. Think the Pandora team made a mistake. I didn't pick this song because it was named after Los Angeles but because the sadness of the song is perfect. 

I have made a few bad decisions that have brought me where I am today. Yes, I learned my lessons though the universe had to try many times to get it through my head. Which meant I went through a very long difficult period especially in these last 3 years. Finally, I learned my last lesson in this period of my life and I know that this marks the end of it. The next chapter is about to begin and it will be completely different. I know now that we are always in control of our lives. It's just that sometimes we forget. I can't wait to see what the future holds.

Another Turn

Not much has happened in my life since my last post. It is pretty much the same. However, my career path has taken another turn. It is no longer going to be in international development. I have missed the window for that. I also realized I am not disciplined enough to work in this field since there is a lot of working independently. I am getting better at discipline but I don't have enough of it.

So what exactly do I have in mind now? Working with kids. Probably helping them, too. I still like to and would like to incorporate that into my future career. I have ruled out teaching from my volunteer experience where I did a lot of raising my voice and telling kids to do their homework. I can not handle a group of kids even if they are a bunch of little kids. At the end of the day, it's just tiring. I did some research into child psychology graduate programs. A lot of the graduate programs are aimed at creating researchers and academics in the field. That's not what I want to do. The other option I came across is a career as a school psychologist. The graduate program wouldn't take as long (3-4 years, whereas the child psychologist path is about 5-6 years). I also wouldn't need to basically go back and take a bunch of psychology courses to get into programs. I would just need to take some. The only thing is I have to go talk to a counselor at the community college first to see if I could still get into grad school with the coursework I did as an undergrad. It's been 8 years since I graduated. Could I still use those courses to fulfill my undergraduate requirements?

Just before writing this post, I came across this blog written by a school psychologist. Reading about what one of her days is like, made me smile. This is pretty much what I would love to do for a career. I love school, I like/love kids, I love helping them. This must be it. Now it's just a matter of studying for the GRE and taking those psychology courses to prepare me for grad school.

I Miss Paris

The feelings are resurfacing. It started when I found out a friend is going to Paris. Thinking about all my favorite places brings back a lot of memories. I'm back to dreaming about moving there in the future while I still have my health.