random bits.

i have a bunch of things on my mind so i'm just going to dump it into one post.

1. southern california is going through some wacky weather. a few days ago it was sunny and fairly hot that i had to use an umbrella to shield myself from the sun's rays. yesterday, it started to rain, was grey, and cold. i wasn't wearing a proper jacket so now i am sick. today, the sky was blue and cloudy but still cold. it is about 10:34 pm right now and it's cold inside.

2. i have been trying to figure out what i want to do all over again. still don't know yet. i'm questioning what i previously thought i was going to do: work in international development. currently i feel like the universe is pushing me into education. i am currently working with kids and one of the things i do is help them with homework. i am also in the process of applying for a tutoring position at another club.

before the idea of working/studying international development was snuffed, i came across a program called world teach where volunteers are sent to teach in developing countries for one school year (or a summer period). i am now reading about current volunteers' experiences through their blogs. i hope soon that i will have a feeling one way or another about going into international development. at the moment i'm just questioning everything i can, making sure that i want to go into it for the right reasons.

3. realizing that the last two years, as difficult as it might have been, taught me an important lesson as well as realizing that i am still very fortunate. millions of other people are going through much harder times than i am.

4. can't believe it's already november. another year coming to an end and i hope to be able to find another job before the new year. that would really make my new year.