pisces

being born a pisces can be frustrating at times. sometimes very frustrating. we are undecisive peoples - but only sometimes. out of all the fish's characteristics, that one frustrates me the most. i once spent two hours deciding between two backpacks. having options is not always a good thing for us. now my new dilemma are all the options for grad school that i have. a) i could apply to grad school, then go to france in the meantime, then start grad school. b) i could apply to this school's certificate program (it's four classes), then apply for a master's degree at another school after. c) this school offers everything i could want in a program but its one of the most expensive schools out there. d) i want to study french but what if i can't defer enrollment...the questions and options are endless.

the last time i had to make a major decision (it was about my most recent trip to france), i had done a ton of research in the four years leading up to it. i would have to say it was the best choice and maybe my only choice (it was either that or not go and continue to be miserable).

in the meantime, i will need to study. i will need to learn how to write research papers all over again. i am currently studying how to write better. next i will need to study for the g.r.e. then i will need to think about what to write for my letter of intent. even more difficult will be trying to find professors who can write a rec letter for me - i studied art; that might be a problem. my cousin suggested one of my professors from the language school school in france. i hope that will be good enough. if not, i was thinking trying to get a hold of one of my art history professors. i hope, again, that i still have one of the papers i wrote for her class somewhere.